within the protests that erupted in the wake of the state-sanctioned murders of george floyd, breonna taylor, and tony mcdade, i felt the need to process my grief. these poems were written during the second half of 2020.

freedom is non-negotiable
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firelight
internal combustion
atmospheric pressure
you are the medicine
and you'll share this one too
work ethic
standardized test
innovate or die
twenty bullets
domestic terrorism
good trouble
compound interest
to the racists, sexists, homophobes et. al whom the old normal benefitted
you should have listened
reefer madness
without representation
said maya to daedalus
the algorithm doesnt care about you
you need to stop discovering shit
why must they be so loud
cotton loophole
the oleander in bloom
onyx on the workshop floor
swords and plowshares, hammers and nails
chemotherapy
stereotypography
forty percent off
united states of philadelphia
poorest big city in america
but we rich in spirit
(and also capital)
see there’s change in these
couch cushions
if you just take time to dig
we’re just poor in the way
that sidewalk acorns
can’t grow leaves
“poor” the way that movie girl
is “ugly” before her makeover
(but we stan a bitch in glasses)
you might fuck around and
catch these hands
you might slip and fall and
find these hands catch you
cause brotherly love means we will
cuss you the fuck out
if you fuckin up
cause we love you
and brotherly love means when
these streets take one of ours
we take to these streets
cause we love you
our mascots are neon chaos
our main exports are “wish a nigga would”
our national flower is a
little black girl in beads
who saw the police think
they were above these hands
and raised her voice
to sing our national anthem:
“aight, bet”
welcome to
phila-
fuck-around
and-find-out-
adelphia
(try the pretzels)
firelight
i am looking at the mountain
and wondering the grade
the trek that lies ahead of us
the waters we will wade
though beasts within the forest dark
still gnash their teeth with glee
i’ve got my trusty firelight
and you to walk with me
the road is long and treacherous
and so far we have marched
past smoke and plague and turbulence
and men with evil hearts
and though the path ahead of us
we scarcely can foresee
i’ve got my trusty firelight
and you to walk with me
so take we now, a moment
while uncertainty abounds
we’ll need to keep on fighting
but for now we can sit down
for when the slope ahead of us
reveals its true degree
i’ve got my trusty firelight
and you to walk with me
internal combustion
the flame burns in the engine still
manhattan to western shore
’neath blackened soot and orange sky
the engine cries for more
we never forget, yet scarce recall
what history’s thrown on the pyre
still bound to the engine, desperate for fuel
—and everything’s cold to the fire
atmospheric pressure
birds don’t defy gravity
they just know how
to play with
the weight of the world
without carrying it
you are the medicine
child,
dance
dance like the first one to
hear the depths of her own
heartbeat and call it music
liberation through rhythm reclamation
dance till the walls shake
and the ceiling caves in
and the stars hold you steady
as you scream your grief into the
endless night
dance until the sun burns itself into
your glorious crown
the heat rising with our voices
in the dawn
we summoned
dance with the humid
sweat of lovers entwined in the
sacred business of fucking
and never forget we create pleasure
before we create life
dance so when the time comes
to finish the marathon
your legs are strong enough
to carry you that one final step
to freedom
and you'll share this one too
another black life extinguished
we try to get your attention
again
gunsmoke rises in the video
his runaway soul captured
lashed to plow an infinite feed
reaping advertisements
as if a thirty-day workout is enough
to transform my body into one
they won’t shoot
work ethic
it’s so funny how
a nation founded on
slave labour
thinks the solution
to every goddamn thing
is “work harder”
standardized test
how are my children
supposed to stand tall
with a bulletproof backpack
full of white history
innovate or die
somehow
a poor white mother patches her sons shoes with
linoleum tiles and
a poor asian mother turns last nights rice into
todays congee and
a poor black mother folds a twenty in the shape of
christmas morning and
somehow
silicon valley is the peak
of innovation
said the crow to the carcass
“you could fly too if only
you were clever like me”
twenty bullets
she was an emt
i'm told, again and again
nine shots plant in her and
one first responder watches as
one first responder can scarcely ask why
tell me, officer,
was she supposed to heal herself?
domestic terrorism
silent vans in the
night
the long arm of the
law
bears a tattoo:
never forget
good trouble
two bare feet walk off an alabama porch
and into history
in your footsteps
twelve hundred church shoes step into selma
in your footsteps
two million boots trod into the capitol
in your footsteps
countless feet lift the banner worldwide
rest now
the work is not done
but thanks to you
neither are we
compound interest
we've been borrowing
from the future
for years
the future
has come
to collect
to the racists, sexists, homophobes et. al whom the old normal benefitted
motherfucker
we
are
trying
to
free
you
too
you should have listened
we spoke in polite whispers
in hopes it would spur you to act
to spend a little less
to care a little more
but you could not hear above
the clanging din of
your slot machine
could not see us clearly with
bloodshot eyes
we spoke in clear tones
in hopes it would move you to act
to resist a little less
to feel a little more
but you turned up the volume
the white noise of
your internal narrative
could not feel us
gasping for air
we screamed at the top of our lungs
in hopes it would force you to act
to speak a little less
to hear a little more
but you drowned us
in your panicked pleas
for civility
could not see the depth
of our courtesy
our thunder roars angry in the distance
desperate rains flooding the streets
the climate changes because of you
the climate changes in spite of you
and you sweat
as the blood-red moon
hangs in judgement
over your horizon
reefer madness
green was the only
opportunity i knew
when they said that
i threw my life away
well i lost more years to
possession with intent
than you spent
on your fucking mba
without representation
our first lesson as kids in
American history is
if you're breaking the law,
blame a minority
or did i misunderstand
the point of the
boston tea party
said maya to daedalus
i am the bird
that broke free
i am strong
enough to fly
i am not strong
enough to carry the cage
the algorithm doesnt care about you
twenty percent off all
black lives matter merchandise now till
august thirty-first and
a stock photo of a
dad helping his son
adjust his n95 mask and
breonna taylor's
killers still
walk the streets as
her landlord wonders
who will pay
her rent
you need to stop discovering shit
the seed was buried in the earth
before the sapling grew
the animals ran wild for years
before we built the zoo
the moon, without our almanac
still shines forever true
and just cause somethings new to you
that doesnt make it new
why must they be so loud
could you stop killing us, please
if its not too much trouble
it has been a difficult day
and i havent yet had time to grieve
the life that was lost
at the beginning
of this sentence
cotton loophole
inmate #7215 finished
his work for the day
deft fingers sewing on
tags that say
made with pride
in the usa
the oleander in bloom
when the news reached galveston
the last to hear
closed her eyes
dreamed of us
and smiled
onyx on the workshop floor
the first mold she had to
break
was her own
could you imagine
break
ing your ribs
so your heart could be
free
swords and plowshares, hammers and nails
there's a very good
reason
the badge is shaped like
a shield
and not
a gun
chemotherapy
the cancer was there
at the beginning
and for the longest time
we've been addicted to smoking
the chemotherapy burns
sets fire to the arteries
burning cancerous and healthy alike
our hair falls out
but we beat the cancer back
at least for a while
the cancer remained
always waiting
for a chance
to s p r e a d
killing those parts of you
you never deemed important enough
to see
we think ourselves cured
we keep smoking
we can't breathe
it solves nothing
but we need to smoke
it solves nothing
it's all we can do to quell the anxiety
it solves nothing
it helps us feel in control
it solves nothing
expensive, nasty, brutish habit
and we spend more on it every year
we catch a flu
and have to decide between fighting
the flu that may kill us soon
and
the cancer that kills us every day
the tumours return
spreading, malignant
this far, we say, and no farther
so now it falls to us
we administer the chemotherapy
it burns once more
we will knock this cancer into remission
again
but if you're tired
of having your life
interrupted
by our aggressive course of treatment...
...quit smoking.
stereotypography
we stand with our hands up
and they hollow out our bellies
with bullets
leaving only a hashtag behind
forty percent off
you once said we were worth
three-fifths
oh to be worth
that much
to you